This now the 17th of February,2012. It will be so for about another one hour and forty-five minutes. This not really very significant except that I got a brainstorm today that fits in with which I have been planning now for about 6 or more months. It is one of those moments that defies description. It moved me to take notes while I was waiting for Belle to come out to the car from a small errand that she was completing. That doesn't happen very often. Even though I do a lot of writing, I rarely get moved to take notes so as to not forget something. I think of something and swear to myself that it is great grist for my blog mill. So I open up my mental Bible and put my right hand on the page and swear that I will make that the topic of "365 Thoughts..." Dare I tell you you how many broken vows I have racked up? Nope. But this is different. It is so different because it defies the plan that I already have for this project. The Plan, as I know it in my heart is at least 10 years old. It might even reach back to 15. Let me check. I have it right here. Just a sec, OK? I found some good stuff, but no dates. I do know that it has to be between ten to 15 years ago.
So, anyway, today I finally came to the realization that there is one moment in my life that says who I am. I am willing to say that everything that I have ever done or failed to do revolves around that moment. I would never have given a thought to the possibility of that happening to me. I was just quoting a famous French philosopher last week. I was saying to a friend that this philosopher, Jean-Paul Sartre said that that the way a person dies defines who that person was. Hey, wait just one little minute here, I am not yet dead. Yet, I am not afraid to say that I have discovered that important moment in my life that is irretrievably "THE MOMENT."
It is interesting that I find myself writing about it on this blog, because I had plans to make another blog the home of my deep philosophical, psychological, theological musings. I even had the title defined when I first made the notes I have mentioned above. So, I have a decision to make. I'll let you all know what it is when it is cast in stone. Don't think for a minute that I am going away. Ha! Nice try.
I wonder how many of you have had that experience of being overtaken with such a profound awakening. This is the third time that I have had one, but none this powerful, not one with such a sudden eruption. This was perhaps only about five or six months in gestation. So now I have it. You are all with me in this. The moment is not ripe for divulging it. My plan since the outset has a deadline a short time in the future. It is longer than you can hold your breath, but it is not very long. I promise that I will tell you. Imagine, a coming of age saga of an old man.
I was also pushed to run to one of my favorite psalms after "the event:" [Psalm 86]
So, anyway, today I finally came to the realization that there is one moment in my life that says who I am. I am willing to say that everything that I have ever done or failed to do revolves around that moment. I would never have given a thought to the possibility of that happening to me. I was just quoting a famous French philosopher last week. I was saying to a friend that this philosopher, Jean-Paul Sartre said that that the way a person dies defines who that person was. Hey, wait just one little minute here, I am not yet dead. Yet, I am not afraid to say that I have discovered that important moment in my life that is irretrievably "THE MOMENT."
It is interesting that I find myself writing about it on this blog, because I had plans to make another blog the home of my deep philosophical, psychological, theological musings. I even had the title defined when I first made the notes I have mentioned above. So, I have a decision to make. I'll let you all know what it is when it is cast in stone. Don't think for a minute that I am going away. Ha! Nice try.
I wonder how many of you have had that experience of being overtaken with such a profound awakening. This is the third time that I have had one, but none this powerful, not one with such a sudden eruption. This was perhaps only about five or six months in gestation. So now I have it. You are all with me in this. The moment is not ripe for divulging it. My plan since the outset has a deadline a short time in the future. It is longer than you can hold your breath, but it is not very long. I promise that I will tell you. Imagine, a coming of age saga of an old man.
I was also pushed to run to one of my favorite psalms after "the event:" [Psalm 86]
9All nations whom thou hast made shall come and worship before thee, O Lord; and shall glorify thy name.
10For thou art great, and doest wondrous things: thou art God alone.
11Teach me thy way, O LORD; I will walk in thy truth: unite my heart to fear thy name.
12I will praise thee, O Lord my God, with all my heart: and I will glorify thy name for evermore.
13For great is thy mercy toward me: and thou hast delivered my soul from the lowest hell.
Verse 13 is the one I flashed on. I sure pray that I can live up to that grace.
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